I get you.



The other day was an epiphany for me. It was the first time that I felt truly that I could lose you. Honestly, I've thought about it quite a number of times before. I'm not proud of it. But I wouldn't deny it either. I played it over and over in my head. How it would happen, who would finally say it...



"I'm sorry but I think we're take some time off."



"I love you but I think we want different things."



Or just simply...



"I want out."



"I'm tired... Of this. Of us."





Those words terrified me a lot. I didn't want to think about it. Although I wanted to talk to you about it. I guess I was waiting for something to happen. Anything! Just so we could get out of this slump. Just so I could feel that I am not alone in this.


And then you said it...


"I can't make you happy..."


I really felt for the first time that I could lose you. I've thought about it, thought about how it would feel, and how I would react... But at that moment, I felt my life shattering. I wasn't ready to lose you and I don't think I will ever be.


You're my b... What would my life be without my b...


I can't lose you. Not at this time, and not this way. It's too easy. Too... Surreal.


Let's work this out. Really work.


I love you. God only knows how much and why, but I do. And I finally get you now. I get you. All your little quirks... Why you acted that way sometimes... Why you were so mad at me. It all made sense. And I'm happy that that night happened, in a way, because I understand you more now. And I am able to look at you and laugh with you (or at you hehehehe) again. When I think about you, I think about the person that I fell in love with. The person I think about before I go to sleep at night and the first thing that comes into my head the minute I wake up...


I get you.


And I'm glad that I do. =) I feel like I'm walking in the clouds again. I feel like I can do anything and be anything again, because of you.


I had fun with you yesterday... The walks in the mall are less tiring now. Dinner was much more delicious. The conversations were more meaningful...


And even the kisses are sweeter.