putting my heart back together

Okay, to be completely fucking honest... It's been a really tiring past couple of weeks for me. Emotionally, that is. Hehe. So I am off to my haven. For 3 days and 2 nights of the beach, sun, partying, eating and drinking. Ahehehehehehe.

I am surely will be missed by some. Naks. Ang feeling nampucha! "Brycee, you'll miss Anang, right?" But for those who won't, okay lang. Ahehehehehe. Yuck, bakit ba ang bitchy ko tonight?! Huhuhuhu. =( Siguro, kasi pagod na talaga ako... Bahala na si Batman! Lahat naman madali lang kasanayan. I am not an enimal. Hehehehehe. I'm a person too, goddamit! I'm a person too! Hehe. Yawk! Talagang nag-quote nalang ng mga movies dahil wala nang masabi. Hahahahaha!

I'm trying not to sleep kasi if I do, hindi lang ako magigising. Mas mahirap. Kaya eto, nagt-type ng kung ano-ano... Parang bangag na ewan. I'm probably going to come back from Boracay on Sunday and read this post and delete it dahil sa sobrang walang sense nito.

Ikaw.

Yes you na nagbabasa right now, kung ako sayo, ic-click ko na yung "x" sa explorer mo or magt-type ng ibang URL kasi napaka-walang sense ng post ko na to. GO!!! Umalis ka na bago ka pa ma-badtrip sa chika ko! Hehehehe! Yuck, ang bitch talaga!

Haaaaaaaaaaay... Gusto kong umiyak sa totoo lang!

Pero hindi ko magawa. Which is actually making it all worse, kasi sumasakit lang ulo ko and I still haven't packed for Boracay. Kanina, I was just sitting on my bed, listening to my Ipod and may narining akong ibang songs na talagang SOLID!

Brick by Ben Folds Five

"can't you see? it's not me you're dying for

and I'm feeling more alone,

than i ever have before."

Mata by Mojofly

"nakita ko na lahat ito

pinahihiwatig ng mata mo

salamat na lamang sayo-hohohohohohoho"

Nobela by Join The Club

"ngumiti kahit na napipilitan

kahit na sinasadya

mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan"

Tsssssss... Tama na nga senti! Kalokohan yan! Aksaya lang sa oras ang pagsesenti! Hihihihihi! Pero pakialam niyo ba?! Eh gusto ko eh!!! Shit!!! Gusto ko talaga umiyak right now, kung hindi lang parang multo na pumapasok si Ate Dr dito sa kwarto ni Ate Girlie Farms.

Tsk! You know what's funny? Meron akong tinetext na someone, niloloko ko lang... And it turns out siya pa yung nakakapag-comfort sa akin. Hahahahaha! Ang weird. God!

Hehehehehe. Ano ba GayGo... Lilipas din to, like any other thing sa buhay mo. One day you'll wake up and parang wala na... Hindi ka na magiging affected.

Yun nga yung kinatatakutan kong mangyari eh... Haaaaay.