putting my heart back together

...I don't want to say goodbye, I'm gonna miss you so much.

Mariel Carissa Bietrice Audential Villanueva - Camua

Oh my God!!! I can't take it! Kisaaaaaaaaaaaa...

My friend Kisa, just flew to the States for good last Tuesday. I was chatting with her, asking her when she was leaving, then she jokingly said "tomorrow". Of course, I didn't believe her. But then after a few seconds she said, "Oh my God, I'm leaving tomorrow na!!!" They were wait listed for a while, and she just got the confirmation right then as we were chatting.

Oh my God!!! I can't take it! Kisaaaaaaaaaaaa...

We've known each other since Grade 1. We've been kabarkadas since 1st year High School. Kisa's moving to the States to live there for good and marry his forever boyfriend Alex. I'm happy for Kisa. I know that not being away from Alex for the past weeks is hard for Kees. And let's face it, they'll have a much better future there, than here in the Phils. But why do they have to move there so soon. Waaaaaaaaah!

Madeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel...

I remember sleeping over at Kisa's house every Friday when we were in second year and third year. I don't exactly know why we started calling each other Madel (which FYI is the name of our other kabarkada), but dabaaaaa, just imagine having a pet name for each other that is actually another person's name. I wonder how Madel feels about that. Hehe.

I remember Kisa and I had a song. Only Wanna Be With You by Roswel. Everytime that song is played on Magic 89.9's Sunday Slow Down, I'd call Kisa or Kisa would call me and we'd say, "Madel, they're playing our song."

Aaaaaaaaaw, Madeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel...

But I am happy for Kisa, even if I'm going to miss her terribly. She's getting married to the one she loves. She has a goal. More importantly, she has a plan. And she's acting out that plan. Here are my wishes for you, Kees. I wish you happiness most of all. There are going to be tough times. Especially when loneliness begins to creep in. There will come a time when you will miss the good'ol Philippines and wish you were driving in the traffic of EDSA rather than the freeways of LA. But it's okay... Just remember that you can call and or Email us anytime. (Btw, bumili ka na ba ng Cingular na sim? Hehe!) And even if we cannot physically be there with you, but we're there in spirit. Waaaaaaah! Katakot!

I wish that you and Alex have a wonderful marriage. Always be considerate of one another. And don't forget to appreciate the silliest things. Remember that your secret weapon is each other. You give each other strength. You live for one another. And even if it's baduy, but believe in the concept, "all you need is love."

And most of all, I wish things between us, Gandas, will never change. Even we won't see each other for a long time, I hope when you come back you're still my Madel. Hehe. And I wish you'd keep us posted with what goes on with your life. Basta, we'll see each other when I go there, Madel. Hindi pwedeng hindi.

Love you so much Kees. I miss you already. =(

Madel!
i just read this.. grabe, i'm so touched!!

I know this is probably the craziest thing that i have ever done in my entire life, and the scariest part of it all is that i'm doing it all by myself.

I know that this is a good thing.. making my plans happen and all but the thing is, i don't think anyone really took me seriously before, I don't think i took me seriously! That's why everything seems so scary.

But I'm grateful for all the support.. it gives me courage to know that there are 11 beautiful girls somewhere out there cheering for me..

luv u madel!! i miss u too!!!

Madel!!! I miss you na talaga, promise! We went to SM North the other day and we passed by UP, grabe... Just the thought that you're not in Ayala Heights anymore... Chumika ka ever ah! And goodluck to you and papa Alec.