putting my heart back together

I was going through my old journal in college. It basically had quotes in there. You know, forwarded messages. And I just felt like sharing those pamatay pagnanasa quotes that I used to go crazy over...

Just a note: HINDI AKO NAGSESENTI! MASAYA AKO NGAYON! =)

>> How will I know how you really feel for me when we spend our time like there's no tomorrow, but then, almost instantly, you act like we never really had anything special at all.

>> I've always thought that I'd have to fight for what I really feel. I fought and got hurt, still I tried to give it a chance... But now, I don't know if I still believe in that. Kasi tao lang ako, napapagod.

>> Diba alam mo na mahalaga ka sakin? Na kailangan kita? Alam mo rin na masaya ako pag nandito ka? At mas lalong alam mo na mahal na mahal kita? Alam mo pala eh... Bat nagmahal ka pa ng iba?

>> The farthest distance in the world isn't the distance between life or death, nor is it the distance between north to south... It's the fact that I'm standing right in front of you and you don't know I love you.

>> Inside it hurts telling me I miss you. Inside I feel great pain knowing I can never have you. Inside I love you and I will always do... But inside I cry saying, "I wish you knew..."

>> What's the worst question someone could ever ask you? "Akala ko ba may thing kayo?" And then you look down and say, "Akala ko rin eh."

>> I remember the day that you asked me to let you go. You were slowly walking away and I asked, "wasn't my love not good enough?" Then you turned around and said, "No, it was too much."

>> Kunyari masaya ako. Kunyari wala akong problema. Kunyari ok lang ako. Kunyari nasa langit ako. Pwede ba kunyari mahal mo rin ako? Sige na... Kunyari lang naman eh.

>> Sabi mo mahal mo ako. Sabi mo rin seryoso ka. Nag-promise ka pa nga diba? Oh yun naman pala eh... Bakit di tayo? Ah siguro kasi nandiyan siya. At siya na mahal mo diba?

>> It's hard to hold on to something you know will never be your in any way you think of. You just have to let go and face the fact that while good things never last, some don't even start.

>> I want to say I love you, I want to say I care. I want to hold you in my arms and keep you there. I want to make you happy and I want to make you smile... But will she lend you to me even just for a while?

>> Masakit pag yung taong mahal mo iniwan ka... Masakit pag nakita mong may kasama siyang iba... Pero diba mas masakit pag nakita mo na masaya siya? Masaya siya dahil, wala ka na.

>> You told me you miss me, but you don't. You told me you care but you don't. You told me I'm special to you but I'm not. Then you told me the truth... That you don't love me. I just smiled and said, "I know."

>> You might say that I was the first one to let go between us, you said goodbye and I let go... Just lihe that. When all I ever wanted was for you to say, "please stay." but you never did.

>>Loving you used to be my greatest fear. And I was right, it hurts. But thanks anyway... You showed me what love really is. And now I know... That it's just not you.

>> It wasn't the way my heart ached when you told her you loved her. It was the way my heart broke for you when she told you she didn't want you that way. That was how I knew that I love you.

There you go. The sad and lonely quotes that haunted my past. I don't know why I decided to dig through yesterday. I guess maybe I'm feeling something wonderful and sublime (as Podi said) that my past seems so meaningless and insignificant right now as I'm sitting here. I don't know... This is the first time that I didn't feel so tired, so afraid and so psycho. I can stay up half the night talking to him on the phone and the other half thinking about him and what we've talked about and I never felt so rested the next day.

Sighhhhhhhhhhhh... Right now really, there's only one quotable quote that matters...

>> In God's time we will fall in love for the right reasons and to the right person... When that time comes, that person willbe worth the wait, the tears and the pain, then we will forget we ever cried.

E yung quote na

"Alam mo ang gusto ko sa yo, yung nakatingin ka sa malayo. Yung parang me problema ka. It makes me want to hug you and tell you everything's gonna be alright... parang ang sarap mo kasing mahalin eh."

Di mo pa narinig yun? KAsi inimbento ko lang yun eh. Hehe.

|Wylmer™|