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Over You
by Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.


Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.


Huwag mo nang itanong sa akin
Di ko rin naman sasabihin
Huwag mo nang itanong sa akin
At di ko na iisipin


You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.


Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,


I got over you.


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Saturday, November 20, 2004
I'm still here?
 
I was digging through my old files in my computer yesterday, and I saw this blog entry that I wrote-but-never-published-so-I-saved-it-on-Notepad-instead. It was a killer.

Isn't it funny how you can miss someone so bad even if they're just sitting right in front of you?
Sometimes when we're together I notice how he's not the same guy he was last year. Don't get me wrong. He's still sweet. He gives me stuff. Nice stuff. And he works on my car a lot. He cleans it, makes sure the tires are, uhh filled up?.. But somehow, I feel our relationship is nothing beyond that. We don't talk about stuff anymore. We only talk about cars.

Cars.

Cars.

And more cars.

But I don't think it's mostly his fault, you know? Sometimes when we're together, I feel like there's this huge pressure to fill in the moments of silence. I feel so nervous when I'm around him, which I really like in a screwy and odd way. You know, the jitters. The extra effort to look really "nice" when he's coming over. The cooking for him and making/giving him something special. The being afraid to let him know that I'm with another guy (not in a bad way) just so he wouldn't get mad.

Sigh.

Maybe I am trying too much. Oh what am I going to do? I hate that I love him! It was so much easier when he was this "dog" that kept popping out of nowhere. I hate that I have to always be the one to ask him to come over or watch a movie or have dinner. I hate that I think of him every single moment of my waking hours. Ooooooh!

Love ruins everything.

I don't care what you think. It does.

But there is one thing worth taking note of... Everytime we're hanging out in my room until late hours and I accidentally doze off, he always takes a glass of water and puts it on my bedside table before he sneaks out of the house. He knows that I always get thirsty in the middle of the night. It just drives me nuts how he could think of the littlest things to make me happy.

Damn him!!

I wrote this during the last month of our "game". Sighhhhhhh... I'm tired. I never thought I'd be so tired at 21.

chumika si menasha at  10:42 PM

Comments:

Coz when I hear yer name or see a place that you've been.... Reminiscing!

Anonymous Anonymous @ 8:09 PM  

pucha! AMEN!!! tinamaan naman ako don!

:-p
daMowdel

Anonymous Anonymous @ 3:50 AM  

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