putting my heart back together

I don't want to remember, the things that we've been through.
All the things that remind me of you...
I don't want to hear the songs, the songs we used to sing
Coz I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart.

Excerpt from Smallville Season 2 Ep. 16

Chloe: "I want to let you in on a secret. I'm not who you think I am. In fact, my disguise is so thin, I'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade like I did at the Spring Formal, but I can't because you'll get scared and you'll run away again. So I decided that it's better to live with a lie than expose my true feelings."

[She starts to get choked up and stops reading for a second]

Chloe: This is so much easier when you're unconscious.

[She runs her fingers through his hair brushing Clark's bangs to one side of his head and starts to read again]

Chloe: "My dad told me there are two types of girls. The ones you grow out of and the ones you grow into. I really hope I'm the latter. I may not be the one you love today, but I'll let you go for now, hoping one day you'll fly back to me because I think you're worth the wait." [She puts the paper down on her lap and runs her fingers through his hair again. He stirs] Clark?

Clark: [Quietly Still out of it and eyes closed, groans] Lana?

A tear slides down Chloe's cheek. She quickly puts the paper back in her hand bag and quickly gets up and starts leaving. When she gets to the door she looks back at where Clark is laying still asleep. She walks out and closes the door before starting to cry.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay... This is such a bad day. It started out so good and right now I'm feeling so bad... Sigh!!! I hate it! I hate it! Feeling paranoid and depressed again. Feeling sick, and psycho... I hate it when I'm having a day like this. When you feel some sort of impending doom but you know that there's really nothing to go psycho about. Aaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME????????????????????

It really depends... Although from my point of view, you need to put something into that hole of yours. But figuring out where, and which hole to fill up with, that's up to you.

Sometimes cooking something you really like, and taking the time to savor the taste, can be really therapeutic.

Other times, you're just lonely, and a simple chat with an old friend can put you back up to being normal.

I know. it's a hit and miss situation, but that's how it goes. It's how you work around it that matters.

:)

Hah! Tell me, sinong hindi makaka-relate kay Chloe? At one point or another, we would encounter someone who's exactly like she is... worse is, we ARE that person... shet... kakain na nga lang ako! hehe