Okay.

Normally, as I ventured into this new phase in my life I have entertained the possibility of liking someone. I originally thought it would be this certain someone, but now it turns out to be someone else completely.

Someone I would never have thought possible that I would like.

Damn. Why him?

Why not him?

He's nice. Seems to be funny. And he has the qualities I like in a guy. Which are?.. Naaaah. Maybe next time.

Now the question is, what's gonna happen now?

Nothing.

That's right. Nothing ever happens with guys I like. Well, actually, disaster strikes. Or worse, just plain null.

Why is it that I never seem to get what I want? I always end up with guys stupid enough to be in like with me, and I just end up liking them back. Why is that? Is there a grand scheme that forbids me to at least for once get what I want?

Who I want...

What usually happens is, I make this whole mess with the object of my affection and we either end up as bestfriends or bestenemies.

OR

We become close and while taking a deeper look, I realize that he's not really all that and I fall out of like for him.

AND

Worst case scenario, I like him with all my might and he doesn't know I exist and I just sit quietly while I watch him playing around with his friends or while he flirts with some hot babe (what a cliche! haha!).

I wonder what would happen with me and hmmmm... What's a good code name for him?

Miguel. (courtesy of my friend Cris.)

Will we finally have the happy ending I think I deserve? Or will I once again yield to the grand scheme of things called fate where I never get what I want and I am doomed to wander the planet alone forever?

We'll see...