I miss him.

It's been what?! 4 freaking days?! Why the hell is this happening to me? Why now? Now when I have "the reason".

And the reason is you...

I guess this all has something to do with the new workstation they transferred me to. Dark. Lonely. Cold.

Is that how my life is going to be from now on?

Dark. What I hate about this workstation is I can't see the pantry. That's it.

Lonely. No one around here is talking to me. I miss Marvin.

Cold. Literally. It's like 1000 fucking degrees out here!

But I guess what's making this place even darker, lonelier and colder is the fact that I haven't had contact with Miggy. (Yuck! Whatanickname!)

I miss him.

This morning when I woke up there was no sense of "I have to wake up and move fast because I get to see Miguel today". I admit, his face did enter my mind while I was having a battle with myself whether I should go to work or not. But it wasn't as effective as it used to be. It used to work like a snap, but it didn't earlier... I wonder why that is.

I guess because I've been so used to not seeing him these past couple of days that I've forgotten how it felt like. Darnit!

It's empty.

Fuck! Whenever I think about that... aaaaaaaaaargh!!

Oh btw, I got a message from howe last night. He said, "bago kong number dito, tawagan mo ako!" Demanding ampowtah! Of course I didn't call him. Ano siya pensionado?! And if he wanted to talk to me, why doesn't he call me?

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!! I don't know anymore. I'm outtie!