Sa totoo lang, parang ang lungkot ng feeling. Hindi dahil nalaman ko na may better half na si Miguel. Dahil lang...
"Empty."
Alam niyo yun? Ok naman ang lahat today, pero alam mo na wala ka nang karapatang pagnasaan ang QA ng ibang unknown account. Hay! Kung tutuusin, eto na ang pinaka-masayang araw dapat ng buhay ko, (exagge) pero hindi... Kasi ngayon, alam niyo yun? Alam mo na na hindi mo pwedeng i-sensationalize ang bawat kilos at galaw ng isa't-isa. Wala nang mga hidden meanings (na sa totoo lang nasa utak mo lang naman). Wala nang mga "side looks and half smiles" na pwedeng gawan ng pagkahaba-habang entry sa blog. Wala na... Wala na... Wala na...
Wala na nga ba, iha?
Dapat lang! Kasi ano pa nga bang mapapala ko kung hindi sama ng loob at depression. Haaaaay... Siguro mashado lang akong na-excite kasi ngayon nalang ulit ako nagka-
crush in a looooong time. (Aren't I too old to have crushes?) Bakit ba! Hindi naman masama yon ah. I'm in a new place, with new people so inevitable na na magkaka-
object of my affection ako, devah? Haaaaay... Gusto ko lang muna mag-senti galore ngayon and wala na akong paraan kung pano gawin ito kung hindi... Magpost ng mag-post ng mga kalungkutan quotes at poems... Mwahahahahahahaha!
Eto poem ko para kay howe dati... (Alam ko walang connection kay Miguel, pero gusto ko lang i-share...)
When the rain is blowing in your face
and the world is in your case
I'd offer you a warm embrace to make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and stars appear,
and there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years to make you feel my love
And I don't regret the rain
or the nights I felt the pain
Or the tears I had to cry,
some of those times along the way
And every road I had to take,
everytime my heart would break
It was just something I had to get through
to get me to you
For it was not into my ear you whispered,
but into my heart
It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.