It's not Merry Christmas... It's a half smile and a nod.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
He's back. My boyfriend's back.
I can hear Jerome's voice with matching echo...
"ASA!"
Fine.
Libre lang naman mangarap diba?
He's here. Finally. After 100 years. Turns out he still has the same sched. Still has the same goofy smile. Still has the same soft voice. And still has the same smell. Same old, same old Miguel. Hahahahahaha!
I was thinking this morning if I still didn't see him today, then
it's over and done, but my heartache lives on inside... And who is the one you're clinging to, instead of me, tonight? And where are you now?... YOU'LL NEVER SEE ME FALL APART!
Earth to gaye, come in gaye...
I was happy when I saw him.
Naturally. I dunno... Mixed emotions. Red really
is my lucky color.
On a more serious note.................................
Howe's back!!!
He called me last night on my cell and started acting all psycho again. (Kneels down and prays...
God, bakit lagi nalang psycho? Hindi ba pwede one time lang matinong tao naman?)
The phone in my room is unplugged now because since Sau left, nobody ever calls me in my secret number anymore, and my parents didn't sleep at home last night so nobody was answering the phone so he called my cellphone. It was 11:30 and I was already falling in love in my dream. Then the fucking phone rings. I answer it immediately without really thinking about it. And his greeting was...
"Wake up, may sunog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" With matching sigaw ang lolo mo.
"Tangina ka!" Was all I could say...
Then he went on and ooooooon and oooooooon about work and life and his car and my car and what he thinks we should do regarding the repainting and the mags and all that. Blah! Then the conversation turned into one of his "I miss you" bullshit. Until it came to the "let's go out sometime" nonsense. Sighhhhhhhhhh...
Dear Howe,
I don't know what you want from me anymore. Why are you still doing this to me? I can't move on with my life with you always breathing down my neck everytime I see one glimpse of hope. I can't be in love with you forever. And I'm not anymore. Please, leave me alone.
Naks! Ang drama ng lola mo!
I don't want to talk about this anymore. I have an update about Miguel... Ahihihihihihi!