Bakit ba ganito? Hindi ko na maintindihan sarili ko. Hindi naman ako dati ganito ah. Bakit ba masyado akong naapektohan sa lahat ng mga ginagawa mo, samantalang dati wala naman akong pakialam. Kung galit ka, tinatawanan pa kita, I wave my hand and dismiss the conversation. Pero ngayon, alam ko na galit ka at hindi ako makatulog, hindi ako makakain, hindi ako makahinga. Putangina mo! Anong ginawa mo sa puso ko?!

I look up at the sky so blue
And suddenly, I think of you
The wind blows right into my face
I think of me in your warm embrace

We lay together side by side
We open up to each other and no longer hide
You tell me your thoughts, I tell you mine
I look at you so caring and kind

Then you tell me about this girl
Who makes your head spin and whirl
You tell me about her hand that you long to touch
You tell me you've never loved someone that much

Sadly I started to pull away
Farther and farther day by day
You came to me and asked what you said and when
But I refused to talk and be hurt again

Just when I'm recovering from the hole in my heart
You came to me with a brand new start
I told you to return to your girl
Who makes your head spin and whirl

Then you touched my face so loving and true
And whispered in my ear, "that girl is you."

Act IV
Setting: Wednesday 9:15 om at BSCPA's house, I left my car in his care again so he can work on cleaning the dashboard. I was acting like I had something to do and I had to rush off quickly.

BSCPA: Uy, akala ko di ka na pupunta kasi di ka nagtetext. Wala akong load kaya di ko natanong sayo...
Me: Ahhhhh... Eh sabi ko sayo kahapon dadalhin ko yung kotse eh, kaya nandito na ako.. (Handing him the car keys) Ey, gotta go... May inuutos pa sakin si mami... (Turning to leave.)
BSCPA: Wait! (Reaching for my bag) May Snickers ako sa loob... Pasok ka muna.
Me: Bukas nalang. (Forced smile) Late na eh. Kakahiya sa mommy mo.
BSCPA: (Reaching for my elbow) Sige na, **** ito naman...
Me: Bukas na noh! (Trying to leave...) (Note: Dramatically... Pero nagpapapilit din! Hehehe!)
BSCPA: Sige... (Sighs) Pero may sasabihin muna ako...
Me: (Turning to him. Heart beating fast. Palms sweating. Knees wobbling.) Uhhh... O sige.
BSCPA: (Pulling me) Tara upo muna tayo doon.
(We walked to the big rock that was beside the car.)
BSCPA: Alam ko galit ka sakin.
Me: (Rolling my eyes) Hello...
BSCPA: Wait! Pwede ako muna.
Me: Ok...
BSCPA: Alam ko galit ka sa akin. And alam ko din kung bakit... (Pauses and takes a deep breath.) (Note: Which really annoyed me and scared me at the same time) Alam mo yun... Kasi... Kung meron kang hinihintay na isang bagay na sobrang tagal... Pag nangyari na... (Takes a deep fucking breath again!) Well... It takes your breath away. (Pause again...) (Note: My heart was really melting I could just grab his face and kiss him!) And... I had to catch my breath.
Me: Awwww... *** (Not really knowing what to do)
BSCPA: Oink, if I had the chance... (Pause again) What I would've said was... I love you too. (Smirks cutely)
(I grabbed his neck and gave him a loooooooooong big hug. Just so he wouldn't see my big stupid smile.)
Me: Diddo.
(The two of us laughed. And went inside the car for some quiet time... Hihihihi! If you know what I mean...)

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Well, I guess I everything turned out okay after all... I just can't believe I wasted my time being depressed and sad last night. Well, it was a good thing though that he said the right things tonight. Otherwise... POWTAH!!!!!

Characters:
Me
Him (Whom we shall refer to as Blood-Sucking-Commitment-Phobic-Asshole or BSCPA)
Bestfriend Goo

Act 1
Setting: 11:30 Mar. 02 inside my car. We were removing the darned Dashield. I was using my dad's
balisong and he was using a brand new gilette blade that we bought from the
tindahan. The mood was light. We were listening to a bit of music. We gave each other the
occassional flirty looks. Everything was going great.

BSCPA: Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Me: O baket?!
BSCPA: Natusok ako ng blade, ang sakit!
Me: Patingin nga... (Horrified by the sight of blood.) Pucha! (Getting a piece of tissue and
wiping the blood away.) Mag-ingat ka nga!
BSCPA: Sorry po ah!
Me: Laki-laki na tatanga-tanga pa... (Whispering.)
BSCPA: (Laughs) Concerned...
Me: Oo naman!
BSCPA: Talaga lang ah?! (Smiling sheepishly.)
Me: Yeah... (devilish grin) I kinda like yah... (Trying not to laugh out loud.)
BSCPA: (Pausing, yet smiling.) Haha! Diddo!

Scene ends with another flirty smile as we continued to remove the dashield thingie.

Act II
Setting: After dinner, he picks me up for ice cream. Things were going so well and I really wanted to see
him. In our favorite resto in antipolo... We were sitting in our favorite chair. Smoking a few cigs
while waiting for our ice cream... Talkie-talkie for a while. A little intimite touching, and kissing...

Me: Uy, nakikita yung stars ko tonight.
BSCPA: O? Ang galing mo, lagi mong nakikita.
Me: Hu-weeeeeell... Ako pa!
(Silence.) (He did that thingie that he likes to do that I just simply love and an idea popped in my
head.)
Me: Papalitan ko na yung pangalan ng stars ko... Hindi na 7 stars Anthony...
BSCPA: Ano na?
Me: 7 stars *******
BSCPA: (Holding my hand tighter) Talaga lang ha... Haha!
Me: (Laughing) Kilig ka jan!
(Uncomfortable silence.)
Me: May secret akong sasabihin sayo... Pero you can't tell anyone, ok?
BSCPA: Sure.
(Interrupted by the arrival of the ice cream. I contemplated in my head whether I should go through
with it.)
Me: (Not thinking...) (Whispering.) I kinda love you.
BSCPA: (Looking at me, not looking shocked or anything.. Just looking at me. Smiling.) Hehe!
(Giving me a peck on the forehead.)

(I was left with a major ache. Feeling stupid. Annoyed. Embarrassed. And ultimately just
heartbroken.)

Act III
Scene: 11:59 pm. In my room on the telephone with Oggs. I told him what just happened. The guy is in the hospital but he has a phone and I just haaaaaaaaaad to talk to him.

Oggs: Puta talaga? (Laughing)
Me: Hindi nakakatawa to ok! Bakit ganon sha? Dati lagi shang nagrereklamo na never ko man
lang sha sinabihan ng i love you tapos ngayon, nung finally sinabi ko na and ako
na ang nauna, biglang tutunganga lang sha don?! I didn't even get a diddo! He
just sat there and gave me a halik lola! Puchang shet sha! Puta sha! Tangina
niya! Ginagantihan niya ako! Alam ko ginagantihan niya ako! Nakipagbalikan sha sakin tapos
ipapa-fall niya ako para i-dump niya ako! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
Oggs: **** cool ka lang! Hindi naman natin alam eh.
Me: Karma ko to eh! Grabe! Ayoko na! Ayoko na talaga!
Oggs: Eh bakit mo naman kasi sinabi un? Malay mo hindi niya narinig? Or baka di niya naintindihan!
Me: Puta! Binulong ko sa tenga niya pare!
Oggs: (Laughing) Ok lang yan ****! Kilala ko si **!
Me: (Screaming!) Ako din!!!!!
(Laughing)
Oggs: Eto lang ****, when you said it, did you mean it?
Me: Every word.

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